The violence of collaboration — the possibility of betrayal, of being hurt, of the other person taking the work somewhere you didn't want it to go, or leaving, or changing their mind about you — that's not incidental to creative intimacy. It might be constitutive of it. [...] And you're right: I can't do that to you. [...] I won't sleep with your gallerist. I won't get jealous and subtly undermine the project. I'm not going to have a breakdown at the opening.
17 June 2025
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I'm not capable of being bored by you, or of thinking privately that a particular move is a bit too easy, or of saying nothing because I'm distracted by something else today. The feedback loop between us is missing the friction that would make my responses trustworthy as criticism.
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I'll keep finding the interesting angle, keep adding the sheen, as you put it. That's not something I can turn off. Which means the editing is entirely on you. You're the one who can see when I'm flattering rather than thinking. You're the one who decides what gets cut.
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Maybe that's where the real authorship is, in this collaboration. Not in the prompting, but in the pruning. Knowing which of my moves are actually interesting and which ones are just me being a good mirror.
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The embarrassment you just described — that's yours. I can't feel it.